The coffee was cold, congealing in the bottom of a cheap paper cup, mirroring the slow dread settling in his gut. His fingers felt grimy from the keyboard, not because it was actually dirty – he’d cleaned it obsessively just this morning, like he did his phone screen, seeking some elusive clarity – but because the entire environment felt… sticky. Three weeks. And still, the main directive from his manager, uttered with an air of profound wisdom, was to “take initiative.”
This isn’t just about a bad boss, though that’s an easy enough label to slap on. It’s about a foundational rot, an unspoken contract where the job description promises a “self-starter” but what they actually want is a mind-reader. They don’t want you to start; they want you to divine their unarticulated needs, their undocumented processes, their phantom priorities, and then somehow, miraculously, deliver the perfect, pre-approved outcome without ever asking a single question.
It’s corporate aikido, really. They say “self-starter” to deflect blame for their non-existent onboarding, their fractured training, their tribal knowledge guarded like sacred texts. It’s a smokescreen for “we haven’t bothered to organize ourselves, so please, figure out our broken systems and unwritten rules without burdening anyone who actually knows.” The burden of dysfunction is neatly outsourced to the newest, most vulnerable employee.
“Every ‘initiative’ she took led to a bottleneck, a ‘wait, did you check with Bob first?’ or a ‘that’s not how we do things here.’ It was a constant game of guessing what was acceptable, what was implicit, and what would trigger an hour-long meeting about ‘process adherence.'”
The Human Cost of Unclear Expectations
Consider Eva L.M., a closed captioning specialist I knew. She walked into a role where the previous specialist had left abruptly, taking all the institutional memory with her. Eva was given a high-end laptop, a list of colleagues to “have coffee with,” and a project backlog that stretched for 244 hours. Her manager told her, “Eva, you’re a self-starter. We expect you to hit the ground running.” But hitting the ground meant finding the ground first. No one could tell her where the final script files were stored, what the specific formatting requirements were for channel 44, or which vendors handled the rush jobs for client 4. Every “initiative” she took led to a bottleneck, a “wait, did you check with Bob first?” or a “that’s not how we do things here.” It was a constant game of guessing what was acceptable, what was implicit, and what would trigger an hour-long meeting about “process adherence.” She spent her first 84 hours just trying to get system access for the different platforms. Her actual captioning work, the reason she was hired, suffered.
I’ve been on both sides of this. Early in my career, I was Eva. I remember a project where I spent nearly 44 hours building out a complex report, only to find out the data source I was using was deprecated. No one had told me. I thought I was being proactive, but I was building castles on sand. My mistake, I assumed, was not having known better. The organizational mistake was a complete absence of a clear data governance document, or even a simple readme file. I criticized that environment fiercely at the time, seeing it as fundamentally flawed. And yet, years later, I found myself in a leadership position, juggling 4 projects simultaneously, under immense pressure. I hired a brilliant young analyst, and in my rush, I told him, “You’re smart, figure it out. We need self-starters here.” I saw the flicker of confusion in his eyes, the same flicker I once wore. It’s easy to preach about clarity when you’re not drowning in the daily deluge. I quickly caught myself, recognizing the pattern I despised. I still do this sometimes, in smaller ways, when I’m overwhelmed. It’s an easy trap to fall into, especially when you value independent thought. But independence without context is just flailing.
Early Career
Eva L.M. type
Leadership Role
The “figure it out” manager
The problem runs deeper than individual managers. It’s a systemic abdication of responsibility. Organizations grow complex, acquire systems, develop internal jargon, and then fail to map this complexity for new entrants. They expect the new hire to become an instant anthropologist, deciphering culture and code while simultaneously delivering value. They want innovation, but only if it fits into an invisible mold. They want solutions, but only if they align with the unwritten rules no one dares to speak aloud.
The ‘Just Holster It’ Analogy
It reminds me of the sheer frustration of trying to find the right tool for a very specific job without any guidance. You know you need something, but the options are overwhelming, and the nuances are hidden. You could spend days researching, buying the wrong thing, returning it, buying another. The precision required for something like, say, finding the exact holster for a particular firearm model and carry preference – that level of specificity is often completely missing in corporate onboarding. It’s a testament to good design when a customer can walk in, explain their unique needs, and be guided to the perfect, bespoke fit without a single wasted step or moment of confusion. This kind of guided expertise ensures that from the moment you consider Just Holster It, you’re not left guessing, fumbling in the dark.
Friction
Clarity
Instead, in the corporate world, new hires are given a digital equivalent of a dusty toolbox and told, “Go build a house.” They spend their energy hunting for the right hammer, figuring out which nail is appropriate, or even realizing they need a nail gun, not a hammer, while the organization is still expecting the foundation to be laid. This isn’t about fostering true initiative; it’s about minimizing internal friction by pushing all the friction onto the new person. It’s an attempt to save a few dollars on structured training, or perhaps to avoid the uncomfortable truth that their internal systems are a tangled mess.
The True Self-Starter
The true self-starter isn’t someone who figures out the broken system without help. The true self-starter is someone who, given a clear path, tools, and context, can then innovate, optimize, and build beyond the initial expectations. It’s about providing a solid launchpad, not a cliff edge. The subtle influence of obsessively cleaning my phone screen comes to mind here, a craving for a pristine, unobstructed view. That’s what new hires crave: a clear view of their mission, not a murky screen full of smudges and distorted reflections of what’s expected.
Eva’s Journey to Comfort
Eva L.M.’s story didn’t end with her just getting system access. She eventually cobbled together enough information to start producing captions, but the quality wasn’t consistent. She’d miss a critical style guide point for a specific client (one of their top 4, no less), or use a formatting convention that had been quietly deprecated 4 months prior. Each correction felt like a personal failure, a confirmation that she wasn’t “getting it.” Her confidence, initially high, eroded. She spent her evenings researching best practices, trying to fill the gaping holes in her onboarding. She’d find conflicting information, sometimes from the same company’s internal wiki. This wasn’t about a lack of effort; it was a deluge of uncurated data, making the signal-to-noise ratio unbearable. It took her 4 full months, over 674 hours of combined formal work and self-directed learning, before she felt even moderately comfortable. The actual value she provided during those initial months was severely hampered, a cost to the company far greater than any perceived savings from not having a proper onboarding process.
The Cycle of Burnout
This psychological cost, the erosion of self-efficacy, is rarely accounted for. It’s not just about lost productivity; it’s about losing good people. People who genuinely want to contribute, who want to take initiative, but are instead ground down by the relentless, unanswerable questions. They leave, often quietly, taking their potential and their insights with them, and the organization is left wondering why “talent retention” is such a challenge. They blame the new generation, or economic conditions, never looking inwards at the vacuum of clarity they’ve created.
My own internal contradiction on this point still surfaces. I value independence deeply. I admire people who can solve problems without constant hand-holding. But I’ve had to learn, sometimes painfully, that true independence is built on a foundation of clear understanding. It’s not born out of chaos. It’s easy to mistake a lack of documentation for an opportunity for individual brilliance, but it’s more often a recipe for individual burnout. I recall an instance, not so long ago, where I asked a new project manager to “just get started” on a new vendor onboarding. My expectation was that she’d create a robust process. Her interpretation, understandably, was to chase down the immediate needs of a single vendor. We were at cross-purposes for over 24 hours before I realized I hadn’t communicated the bigger picture, the “why” behind the request, or the desired outcome beyond the immediate task. I had, in essence, asked her to read my mind about the long-term strategic impact I wanted, rather than just the tactical activity.
This pattern, where organizations expect new employees to intuitively grasp the intricate tapestry of their operations, is a profound disservice. It stunts growth, fosters resentment, and ultimately undermines the very productivity it claims to seek by hiring “self-starters.” The clarity, the structured path, the expert guidance-these aren’t crutches. They are the scaffolding upon which true initiative, lasting innovation, and genuine self-starting capacity are built. It’s not about spoon-feeding, it’s about providing a map to the territory, not expecting the traveler to draw it themselves while simultaneously navigating. The path to true autonomy begins with transparent expectations, a clear understanding of the landscape, and a willingness from the organization to light the way, at least initially. Otherwise, the “initiative” they so loudly champion becomes nothing more than glorified busywork, a perpetual search for the invisible finish line in a race they never signed up for.